For this moment, I wish for nothing more but just for you to be here with me for me to depend on. My world is collapsing and I'm struggling hard to keep myself sane from in this wickedly crazy world.

My brother and I share very interesting/lame/ridiculous conversations, all the time.

Just yesterday, my bro's form teacher called my mum up and complained about him skipping detention. So, he called me up the minute he received the 'life-threatening' call from my mum and he thought he might just seek help from me.

Bro: Jie, save me! Mummy is very very angry with me now that I think she's going to kill me.
Me: How come? What did you do again?
Bro: My form teacher called her and complained that I skipped detention.
Me: Then why did you skip your detention in the first place?
Bro: I don't like my teacher because he behaves like a gay. And, I've already finished my work. Then now how? Help me leh! I don't want to die.
Me: Just go home.
Bro: Then? You help me tell mummy?
Me: No. Just go home and wait for her to kill you then. No choice la.

- Hang up -


This afternoon while we were getting drinks from NTUC. Suddenly, there was this stench.

Me: Wtf, so smelly. Confirm got indians nearby.

Bro: How you know?

- Raised my head and YES I was right -
Me: SEE, I TOLD YOU.
Bro: You damn racist leh. Why you don't like indians?

Me: Because they are smelly.
Bro: I'm also very smelly after trainings.
Me: That's why I don't like you what.

My brother called me up to seek help on his book review which due tomorrow.

Bro: Jie, help me leh. My book review due tomorrow leh.
Me: Then how you want me to help you?!
Bro: Got any quickest way to do book review? The book got 200pages leh. How to do by tonight?!
Me: Read at 1 page per min and write at 1 word per second.
Bro: HUH? HOW?!
Me: Precisely! How! Then who do you think I am? GOD?!

PS: I'm racist, so shut up. If you don't enjoy reading, then just don't read!

It's not that I look down on myself. But perhaps, I'm just not good enough to be your daugther.
That's why you don't feel proud of me, yes? Forget it, nuff' said.

Seriously, just shut the fuck up. The more I see you, the more annoyed I get. I'm angry at myself for looking like you, having the same blood flow inside my body, bearing your surname and if I could change all these just to not look like you, I WOULD.

I'm ashamed of myself having such a father. I REALLY AM.

And you call yourself a 'father' when you don't even care for your wife and children, and all you know it's your family. YOUR MOTHER AND SISTERS ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR OWN FAMILY! Since you shut up when your family is 'bullying' us, so why don't you jolly well just shut up and stay out of my business. Don't act like you care when you don't.

My respect for you is totally gone. I no longer see you as my father, since the day you wanted to be an oh-so-filial son to your mum. Go ahead, I'm not stopping you. I'm not even asking you to choose, I just wanted to you to find a balance, but since you only believe them, FINE.

"There's no such thing as can't move on. It's just because you refused to move."
- Yours truly.

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